Friday, August 18, 2006
Thirty Three
Today's word of the day is adumbrate, meaning to indicate or suggest something.
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I really, really, really don't mean to be sentimental, emotional, or philosophical, because truthfully, those 3 things annoy me. Especially philosophy. But I haven't been posting for so long, and now that I have something to type, what excuse do I have not to?
Dissappointment is something that all of us can't avoid, and I'm not just talking about being dissappointed (excuse my spelling, please) with yourself. I'm talking more about being dissappoined by other people. Especially the ones who mean the most to you. In fact, I've heard of this saying that goes : "It's the ones you love who will hurt you the most". And it's true, of course. If you don't care about that person, you won't care what he or she says, and you won't be hurt at all.
And being disappointed with those close to you - like family and friends - is ok, right? It's normal.
I also learnt a little bit about trust today. I would be lying if I said that there is one person who I absolutely totally trust, because I don't. Yeah, there are people out there with whom I've shared secrets and thoughts with, but I can't 100% trust them, you know? I guess it's because there are some things that have happened in the past which made me doubt them.
But, then again, isn't that what trusting is all about? Taking a blind leap of faith, even if you have doubts?
Ok! Enough!
I can't stand all that emo.
Another thing I learne today is that I love ugliness. I don't why. Maybe I subconciously beg to differ?
Like, for example. I know I'm not a drop-dead gorgeous kind of girl, and I know there are people who don't think I'm at all pretty (i know ah! jangan nak bedek!), but I'm proud of that. I'm happy that I don't look nice.
And another thing. People are always wanting to be unique and smart and be able to be and do all sorts of things. They wanna be pretty and funny and talented. But what's wrong with being simple and boring and common?
After all, Allah loves the simple boring common people.
Isn't that why He created so many of them in the first place?
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3:59 PM
