Sunday, June 25, 2006
One
Right. School's tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. Much. Sure, it would be nice to see a couple of friends again, but that's pretty much where the pleasures end.
School's an okay enough place, but I had had a bad month before the school holidays, so I don't blame myself for being a tad pessimistic about going back. After all, I'm not part of my old 'gang' anymore, so I'm guessing that it might just be a lonely 2nd term. Which I cannot stand.
I don't know why I'm not part of the gang anymore... Ok scratch that. I do know. It's because Mus and I aren't as close as we used to be (she said that 'we shouldn't be close friends anymore' in an SMS). And because I'm no longer 'close friends' with Mus, I am no longer a part of the 'gang'.
See, there were, as of previously, 6 people in our gang: me, Mus, Mas, Fiq, Anna and Dinah. So when Mus and I weren't close anymore (putus hubungan. heheh. macam cerite drama), Mas stuck with Mus (cos they're bestfriends), Fiq stuck with Mus (cos she's closer to Mus than to me), Anna stuck with Fiq (cos they're bestfriends), and Dinah... stuck with the majority. I mean, would you choose a loner over your group of close friends? No, you wouldn't.
I still don't know how this started to unravel, though, but the way I see it, I figure that Mus and I just don't click anymore. Like someone said, we're poles apart. 'Opposites attract', sure. But there's opposites, and then there's Mus and me. And when I told her who won in the Amazing Race (we both supported the hippies, so she was the first and only one I SMS-ed. you know, to share the joy), I guess it was the final straw or something. How was I supposed to know that she couldn't stand people telling her who won before she watched it herself?
But we still talk, and we're still good friends, meaning to say we talk normally and don't avoid each other.I appreciate that from Muslihah, not acting like we did something wrong. I really do.
And I don't hold ANY grudges against Mus, or the others, either. I was half expecting this to happen, even; I was just waiting for it to drop on my head. Soreni, they gave me a lot of good memories, so I gratefully thank for that. Like I said, they're still good friends to me. Especially Mas.
So, it might not seem much, but that's the reason why I'm not looking forward to school (much).
There's also the studying part, of course, but
some things are better not said not so much.
Besides. I still haven't found my timetable yet.
11:28 AM
